On Daddy Issues

I hate the way people talk about “daddy issues.”

I think the biggest misconception about daddy issues is that people know how to deal with them. It took me easily 15 years to figure out that “dealing” with my father meant forgiving him and accepting him where he was. It took me a few more years to actually be able to do that. And I was lucky (using that term real loosely here) because my father had an excuse I could buy (addiction and PTSD) but more importantly, because he changed. (I wrote about it yesterday.)  I’m only beginning my research on adults and their fathers, but from what I’ve learned so far, this is not the way it always goes.

More often it’s a painful disaster. A few months ago I read Naked With Socks On’s piece about when he confronted his father about why he wasn’t there. His father didn’t have a good answer, he barely had an answer at all. And when that happens you are crushed. Hell, I was crushed and it didn’t happen to me. Another public example is a scene in the documentary the Prep School Negro. Andre visits his father’s house for the first time and confronts his father about what happened, where he’s been, what the deal was. To be honest, watching this scene was like watching a horror movie. I didn’t want to watch because I was scared of what the father would say.  And like NWSO’s father, this guy didn’t have an excuse and it hurt.  It was literally painful to watch.

I think the fear of these scenes becoming a reality is why I think a lot of people avoid having the conversation. What in the world do you say to a parent who wasn’t there and offers no acceptable reason? What do you do with that information? I don’t have the answers. I don’t know what I would do. And my guess is, a lot of you don’t know either.

What was the point of me writing this?  Lately, it seems that everyone fancies themselves experts on fathers and fatherless children.  And frankly most of what I’m reading comes from people who have no idea of what they are talking about.  I also have many, many thoughts on how we talk about women who grew up without their fathers, but that is another post.  I say all this to say that I hope the next time someone wants to tell people to go deal with their daddy issues, they’ll think for one second about what that really means, how much time it takes and how it feels.

To be clear, I’m not saying that people shouldn’t “deal,” I’m saying offer some compassion instead of ordering someone to do it.

peace,
e.

2 Comments on On Daddy Issues

  1. RaeRene'
    July 13, 2012 at 1:22 am (2 years ago)

    Thank you so much for finally saying something about that. I’ve read so many things about boys posting about their girl friends and telling them to ‘deal’ with their daddy issues. Quite frankly, it makes me want to punch them in the face. I have daddy issues and I don’t know how to ‘deal’ with them. I’m not sure I want to yet. I’ve only recently figured out how deeply they hurt me. I wish more people would tell everyone to stop telling girls to ‘deal’ with their daddy issues. Hello, news flash, we don’t know how. I’ve gotten to the point where I know that nobody around me understands, so I’ve given up on talking about it completely.
    – <3 Rae Rae
    RaeRene’´s last blog post ..and then I turned 30

  2. e.
    July 13, 2012 at 11:21 am (2 years ago)

    Rae Rae,

    Don’t give up talking about it completely, but maybe change who you talk to about it. Also be patient with yourself, this stuff takes time. Good luck!

    e.

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